I started smoking when I was about
12 years old.
This was in the 50’s, at a time when
everybody was smoking away; it was part of the new post-war modern world.
Nobody was mentioning anything about
smoking being dangerous or that you become addicted to anything.
When I was 19, I smoked a pipe, I
don’t think the pipe ever got cold, I was lighting one after the other. It was
a very messy occupation of cleaning and scraping. The worst was the brown muck
that came out of the stem whenever you raised the pipe too high. Since I was
working as a graphic designer, the pipe was not very practical, there were
ashes and tobacco droppings on the artwork and the pipe went out very often. So
you are continuously relighting and messing about with the thing. Also you have
a lot of things to carry, the pipe, the tobacco pouch, the matches and the
cleaning tools. It makes a cumbersome kit to take along all day.
Thus I switched to cigarettes and
before I new it I was smoking two packs a day, sometimes even three.
It took me a while to get used again
to smoking cigarettes, but once used to it I puffed away one after the other.
Sometimes I reduced a bit when I got a very sore throat.
At regular intervals I tried to stop
smoking. I tried acupuncture with a kind of push pin in your ear, I tried that
horrible nicotine gum…
I never made it more than three
weeks and started smoking again.
There always was some kind of silly
reason to start again; some stress at work or home, some friend came over and
we went on a binge, a great party that went on deep into the night, etc…
Then at 40 I had a heart attack,
from stress and not so good living and also probably of a lot of smoking and my
specialist told me to try to stop smoking.
So I tried. I made it two weeks
without and then because of some happening, I started again.
I then decided to only smoke cigars.
I had convinced myself that smoking cigars is not as bad as cigarettes; no
paper, no plastic filter and no additives: pure tobacco leaves. A “healthy”
smoke so to say.
So I started off with smoking one
good cigar per day. This became of course 2, then 5 then 10 cigars.
I managed not to touch any
cigarettes for 10 years and was very proud, that I managed to stick to cigars,
although every one around me complained of the cigar smell. In a number of
restaurants I was asked to refrain from smoking cigars.
So now I was always carrying my
special cigar carry case for 3 cigars (which is not enough to get you through
the day), the cigar cutter and the special lighter.
The problem was always that one had
to calculate, were you went for the day and for how long, nor to run out of
cigars, check that there was a cigar shop nearby or pack another bunch of
cigars in a special case. Running out would be catastrophic.
You maybe see some “déjà vue” in the
above.
Smokers have constant worries. The
worry that you might run out of cigarettes, the worry that you are not allowed
to smoke in certain places and often also to worry not to have enough time to
smoke between pauses or servings at dinners.
And then you have the worry of
carrying all the necessary stuff with you that you need, to be able to smoke.
And imagine the catastrophe to forget your smokes at home, at the office or at
friends.
A non-smoker does not even have the
slightest idea about these worries.
So why do we have such a problem
smoking or non-smoking?
It is the dependency or addiction to
a drug, which is nicotine, probably the most dangerous drugs of all drugs on
the market.
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